That feeling.

That feeling when you meet someone you actully like and care about.

-First your just friends and just hang out, laughing and making jokes, but then you stop talking for a while
 coz you don't know why. After a while like a month or two you finally start talking, and talking and
 talking, when you realise you have a little crush on him and he might like you even more than a friend.

-Your planning a "date" or not really a date, but your gonna meet up and do something fun together one day,
  then something came up so you guy's never met that day.
  No worries though, You start talking even more, and your start liking him even more, and it feels like he          
  also start liking you.
  Your happier than ever befor!

-You hang out few times, sleep togeher, and the funny part here is that the only time he's giving you sings that  he might like you more than a friend is only at night's, hes just cuddling with you. and you feel so special and safe in his arms. No kissing and no sex. Just cuddlingt trough the whole night.
After you wake up at the mornings its like nothing happend. Your just talking and haning out as friends.

When you go home after that and start messing him he's seems to ignore you. But at this point you are so falling for him, you cant even think about anyone els than him, you cant even think straight anymore, you cry yourself to sleep few nights coz you keep on thinking what went wrong and wht you could have done instead what you did do.

Wen you start accepting that your not gonna be anything than friends, he start's talking to you again as nothing happend and giving you more hopes. And you totally fell for him again.
This time your hoping it will work, but it didint, and he's ignoring you again.

That happends over and over again, and your still falling for it every time. You feel like a such a fool everytime.

At this point you have fallen for him, badly and you cant think straight anymore, you dont want anyone els, just him, and your trying so hard to get his attention, sometimes it works sometimes not.
You keep thinking over and over again what you did wrong, and thing you would change if you could.
You keep crying even more beacuse you cant have him, and even if your friends are there for you, telling you its gonna be allrigt you cant belive it. You feel so depressed and lonly.

And after all this, you still want him, no one els, even if he keeps breking you over and over again, your just standing there as nothing happend. And the sades part here, he doesn't even know what you going trugh, coz you alway happy and alway there to take more shit from him. and not telling him about how you feel.
Just coz your so afraid to loose him totally.

You just dont wanna be alone anymore, you hate beeing alone! so your crowling back to your ex, just to see if he's still in love with you. No, he have someone new. You try to meet new guy's, but no one seems to be that you serching for.

Everything sucks. you just wanna move away from here, get yourself drunk and get as many tattoos as possible, be as ugly as hell and stop caring about how you look. Your totally broken inside and hate seeing you friends happy, coz your the only one whos totally alone.You just wanna throw up when you see happy couples walking hand in hand.

That feeling
Varför på Engelska? jo för att jag älskar att berätta seriöst på engelska, svenska låter de bara så löjligt liksa så finska.
Tror jag ska börja prata engelska på heltid! amen fan, de gör jag redan haha!